When You Look at Me It's glaringly obvious when you look at me - Your pupils bite into my soul. They rip and tear at my positivity As if highlighting my flaws is their goal. The frantic fists you shake in frustration Look hard as a boulder from Everest. They pound any hope til it's a dead sensation That starts to match the feeling in my chest. The sharp line of your lips tells me all too well How cutting your next words will be. They chain and drag me straight down to hell Where I can finally feel free. Frozen Space Where has the warmth gone? When did life get so cold? We used to think and act as one. Now I just feel tired and old. Why can't I understand The way you react? Why can't you keep in hand The fact I love you back? Where I used to empathize with you And only dream of making you smile, I feel with all that we've been through There's more distance than a mile. I hope we are stronger than this disease We will be for everyone else, As we wither and crumble and start to freeze, I hope we can help warm ourselves. Failure Defines who I am. When I try to help, I fail. When I leave things alone, it's to no avail. Get one job done - Not enough! Start the next one! Saying what I mean only works When other people listen. Even when I hav success I feel guilty that others may have less. Bitter resentment is all that I feel In and out and all about. I don't know if it's fake or real Or just another depressed bout. This Big... You know how to make me feel smaller than dirt beneath your heel. I say, "What do you want?" all day long. Yet it's always my fault when things go wrong. I'm not consistent enough. So you have to act all tough. Maybe you have to be the bad guy Because you won't let anyone nearby. So I'm the flea on your dog. The sweat drop in your eye during your jog. I'm the sand grinding in your teeth, The pebbles poking at your feet. I'm the buzzing mosquito by your ear. But no matter how I feel at least I'm here.
Inspiring the Works of Valerie Jean 